Saturday, April 11, 2009

self portrait in shades of grey

I am not one for labels. Not in parenting, not in politics, not in religion and not on my clothes.  I find personal success and inner peace when I don't follow someone else's template for how I should love, vote, pray or dress. I keep my eyes and my mind open for what the universe has to offer.  I expect that many attitudes and ideals aren't for me, but I try to stay open to what may.  It might not be a whole concept, but I search for the good and find a way that it might apply to my life and my situation.  How has it worked for others and how it can enrich my life?  If it doesn't work, what have I learned?

The black and white ideals of liberals and conservatives, fundamentalists and atheists,
ferber and sears,
fifth avenue and freeganism, exist in an essential symbiosis.  Each extreme cannot be without its opposite to counterbalance. It is night and day, joy and pain, yin and yang.  They are what outline the world.  My efforts are to find a balance.  Too much "yin" and it is too dark to find my way; too much "yang" and it is too bright to see clearly.

I cannot live my life in black nor white, it is much too flat. But I accept that the tranquil gray twilight in which I paint my life would not exist without them.